a problem

I really think I have a problem. I can not stop eating. It's making me crazy. I seriously think I need to get help for this! It's not just because it's Thanksgiving. I'm eating stuff that I don't like or doesn't even taste good - just to be eating! I'm going to have to put myself on a diet just to limit what I am free to eat. Maybe that will help. I'm thinking about hypnosis - seriously thinking about hypnosis. This has to stop!

Do they make rehab for Diet Coke?

So I have made a sort of mini resolution in effort to improve my outlook on life and my job. I have decided to make a bigger effort to dress more professionally at work, maintain a more professional attitude at work, and try to improve the appearance of my workspace to make it a more pleasing environment to be in. Now, I share this office with a co-worker, so I can't just go all out - and I don't want to spend any money for improvements either. I found a lovely piece of office wall art and had maintenance come hang it for me yesterday. That alone has made it more pleasant and less stark. The building that I work in was once an inpatient mental facility. (go ahead, laugh) and the patient rooms are what we are using as office space. It's odd, but it works okay. I think if I had a rug on the floor, it would seem even less "institutional". So far this week I am doing pretty good on my little mini resolution. I have dressed professionally every day (even accessorized!!!), my office is looking nicer, and my attitude towards my working environment is improving ever so slightly. Baby steps, right?
I decided to take a similar approach to some of my bad eating habits. I am a full fledged diet coke addict. I love the stuff. I swear I start to jones for it if I haven't had it for a while. I need to kick this awful habit!!! I thought - I will just not drink them at all anymore. That doesn't work!! My mind stays preoccupied with my lack of Diet Coke!!!! What the heck? So.. I have decided that I will allow myself one a day - for now. I think giving myself permission to have that much will make it less of an issue - and maybe I won't even want it at all some days! ha! I had a healthy breakfast burrito this morning. I think that will be my new morning staple for breakfast. Whole wheat tortilla, 1 egg/1egg white, low sodium natural salsa (good find,Britt!), and I will add black beans tomorrow. It's quite tasty and seems to keep me satisfied until lunch time. It's the afternoons that get me!! I get the munchies around 2:30. I need some popsmart and some fruit. I think that might get me through.
I think the gym membership is going to happen tomorrow.. yee haw!!! Britt and I are ready to get going. I was so sore last night for some reason. my legs just ached and I haven't done anything. I think it's just from being overweight! Isn't that sad? I watched this show called "Work Out" - reality show with these trainers - and the boss was handing out new clients to the trainers. She had files with pictures and bios on all these people and she was assigning them to folks. She had a couple of gals that were my height and my weight (over 200lbs) and it was awful!!!!!! I can't believe I am that big. I never in my whole life thought I would be this big. when I was a teenager, I was so thin that my family used to worry about me. UGH. This is terrible. My knees hurt constantly and I know it's from carrying my big ole self! I am so tired of it.. but I have said that before, and I still eat and sit on my couch watching tv.
I still need a treadmill at my house.