I am having some days of clarity, or at least I think it's clarity. Perhaps its just me being oblivious to my normal clueless-ness. Ha!
So here is what I have determined. No big shocker that I need to get things in order. Having things out of order is what creates the majority of my stress. (My hair is still falling out, have I mentioned that recently?) So.. I have read books and read blogs and done exercises and enlisted the help of friends. None of this works unless I actually do the work. With my head being in such a total fog all of the time, I forget to do what I need to do or I lay in bed completely overwhelmed by everything I need to accomplish. Not cool, man. Not cool at all. So.. I am tired of other peoples systems that have bits and pieces that work for me and pieces that don't work at all. There isn't one book that fits the way that I want to do things or that will help me to accomplish all of my goals. My life is different than everyone else on this planet. What I need to do on a day to day basis isn't the same as anyone else that I know. So, I have started my own "system". I have a very large binder that is serving as the center of my universe right now. I have a page for every day and on each page is included what my work schedule is and what appointments I have. I also have what I am preparing for dinner, weekly chores that need to be done that day and daily chores that need to be done that day. I also have notes like "Hannah move in day" or "Elijah drop off at camp" on the top of pages that I need to remember big stuff. In the front of my book I have a zipper pocket that includes all the recipes I need for dinner for the week and a separate page that has weekly menus and grocery list. My plan is to schedule things that I need to do for myself as well as the things I need to do for the house / family. For example, I have scheduled an appointment to give myself a manicure and to tweeze my eyebrows. Some may think this is absolutely ridiculous, but I don't get get manicures or eyebrows done and tend to put things like this off until it's way past time and I look like a sasquatch with a unibrow who has been digging for potatoes. Not pretty.
I am going to expand the binder to include things that Elijah needs for school such as homework, school activities and assignment due dates. For now, it's a work in progress. It's my hope that it will help me keep on track, not forget things as much, and stay on a schedule with housework. I'm hopeful. :)