I've decided that I want to become really good at something. Anything. Well, anything other than bitching and whining. I am REALLY good at bitching and whining. So what could I master? I am thinking I would like for it to be something that would actually be of benefit to me or my family somehow. I can't sing. I can't play an instrument. I don't speak any foreign languages (other than Pig Latin, in which I am fluent) and I'm not good at sports. Most people I know are really good at at least one thing. I can't figure out what my one thing is. I'm going to find something, learn it, and become really good at it.
My husband is wishing it would be like, housekeeping or budgeting. Ha!
I need a career. I'm tired of just having a job. I'm frustrated and unqualified for most things that I would love to do because I've been doing what I am able to just to get by. It's time to branch out, friends.. Learn a trade, get me some mad skills other than my already mad ninja typing skills (and Pig Latin)
Conflicted
What a Monday!!
At the request of my darling daughter, I prepared a meatloaf for dinner. I figured it was the least I could do since she picked Elijah up from school and then had to come get me because my car had a flat. Don't I have a spare, you ask? No. The tire that was on the car was the spare. The other tire is flat and happily resting in the trunk of my car. Nice way to end the day, huh? Car repairs are inevitable and I know they need to be taken care of. Why, oh why do they have to REALLY have to be taken care of right before both of my children have their birthdays and just a few weeks before Christmas??? Dave Ramsey would have a field day with this one. I can hear him saying "Emergency Fund" in the back of my mind. I know, Dave. We're working on it.
Hannah put up her pink Christmas tree in her room. It's really cute. Elijah has as little tree for his room as well. I guess I'll put that in there tomorrow. Maybe this weekend I will get our tree put up. I'm really wanting a big real tree this year. We will see how that goes. I'm trying to be in the spirit. I am really trying hard, but the dark forces of bah humbug are getting to me. That and the "broke monster" is keeping me from purchasing things that I want to purchase. I'm trying to remember that It's not about the money and the stuff that you buy, but how can I make my house look festive without spending some bank? I can't. Definitely not on the outside. Oh well.
I need to go to bed. We are a one car family for now and will have to be up early tomorrow to get everyone where they need to be on time.
Ciao
a problem
I really think I have a problem. I can not stop eating. It's making me crazy. I seriously think I need to get help for this! It's not just because it's Thanksgiving. I'm eating stuff that I don't like or doesn't even taste good - just to be eating! I'm going to have to put myself on a diet just to limit what I am free to eat. Maybe that will help. I'm thinking about hypnosis - seriously thinking about hypnosis. This has to stop!
finally,, a post
I haven't blogged since August?? How is that possible? Wow. I know I've been busy, but jeesh. So much has happened over the past four months and I have had a lot to blog about. I can't believe I haven't written anything. I am getting lazy about updating Elijah's website too. I guess I should do that today as well.
So... I shaved my head in September. Crazy stuff, I know. It's at a very awkward stage right now.. I just sort of look like I have this burr of hair on my head. Not cool. I almost liked it better when it was closer to bald, but I sure won't shave it again. (just to avoid having to go through this phase). I shaved it with 46 Mommas. It was a really emotional event, and one that I'm so glad I took part in, even though I hate my hair right now. I am hoping that by my Birthday it will have grown out enough that it will lay down and not stick straight up and out - everywhere. It's terrible, really. I'm very thankful for hats.
I'm trying to find a new job. (shocker, I know) I'm at a point where I would like to go to work close to full time, but it's a challenge because Elijah still has needs above that of a normal kid. He still has to go to clinic every week. He still has to go to Philly every few months, and he still has days where he doesn't feel well enough to go to school. So.. I need a job with great flexibility, or one that I can work from home. I'm praying that I get good news about a job next week - one that would be perfect for our situation, allow me to work part time from the house and make the same that I would make working full time at the hospital. Sounds too good to be true, right? It does to me too, which is why I'm crossing my fingers, saying extra prayers, and doing everything I can so that my karma is good. I think it's time that we had something awesome like this come our way. I have to remind myself that good things can happen too, right? Right.
I'm feeling crafty today and would like to get some projects finished, but it's rainy outside and I'm kinda enjoying things being quiet and CLEAN here in the house. Maybe I will do some things later. I do have some things I've started that need to be finished.. and some things that I need to start before time gets away from me. Britt was busy this morning putting Christmas lights on the outside of the house, but it started to rain and stopped that project. I think we are more in the Christmas spirit this year than we have been in a long time. Things are pretty good. We are still broke as ever, but Elijah is doing well, we are both working, our bills are in decent shape, and we feel like we can actually breath and relax for a bit. It's nice.