what do you want to be when you grow up?

I have always envied those who knew what they wanted to do with their lives and never waivered from it. My husband has known for the longest time that he wanted to be an architect. I have friends at the hospital who always wanted to be nurses and now that they are, they are happy and have never thought of doing anything else. I have waivered so much on what I want to be when I grow up - I fear I will never know. I think I am finally getting to the point where I have decided what to do about it. When all this cancer stuff is behind us and Elijah is healed once and for all (and he will be!) I am going to go back to school and study what I LIKE and what interests me. I love English and literature. I love religious studies, and I love psychology. I am done worrying about what I want to BE. I just want to get my degree in what I am interested in. I am sure the rest will fall in to place. We always joke that I should be a rich architects wife! ha ha. Maybe I will be by the time I finish school and then I won't have to worry about it anymore.
We put a twin bed in our room so Elijah is sleeping in his own bed now. Britt and I have our bed back and actually have room to sleep. It's been good for us, I think. Elijah is sleeping better and still feels safe being close to us. I am making progress on my house as far as cleaning and organizing goes. I am almost to the point where I can clean Elijah's room.. That's a scary thought. You can't even walk in there, it's just covered with toys. It's good that he is so well loved!