Sleep is overrated, right???

It's 130. I am awake. I don't like not being able to sleep, but I do sort of enjoy a bit of time by myself. At least it feels like time by myself. The house is quiet anyway. :) I have so much work that I need to do and I just really don't want to do it. I am ready for the new job - the one that I don't have yet.. ha!. I say that, but then I will bitch about not having weekends free.. I guess I can't have my cake and eat it too, right? I want my backyard to be nice so I can sit out there and watch Elijah play and read my book and drink a glass of wine. It's not a pleasant place to do such things right now. It needs to be cleaned up, some things fixed up, and we need to get the dog under control. I love her, but it grosses me out to have her lick my feet or my legs.. and she does it all the time. Our deck needs to be replaced but I think we will have to do it a piece at a time. That sounds fun, doesn't it? Nope. Neither does raking leaves in 90 degree weather, but I am going to do it tomorrow.. the sweat will do me good. California is in two weeks.. I wanted to lose some weight, but didn't do it.. I wonder if I ever will. I am so negative tonight!! dang! I need to go to bed.
prayers for tomorrow: to work in the yard, to do some work, for Elijah to feel good

Busy Sunday

Today has been a good day. We went to church this morning and really enjoyed that. After Church and lunch, I started back in removing the wallpaper from the downstairs bathroom. I am 99% finished with that part of the project! That will be the 4th part of the house that we have removed wallpaper from. The kitchen will be the next one but we may just paint over that instead of removing. Not sure yet. After that we played with Eljah in his pool we put up for him. He had a blast. I initially wanted to get a larger pool, but am really glad we got this smaller one instead. He will really enjoy it, I think and it saved us a lot of time and money on yard work to prep for a larger one. All in all, a good day.. No house work done, but a good day..

Why Not Me?

So my friend had a good point.. I have a friend that could do some of that for me for free.. it got me to thinking.. I can do most of that for myself for free!!! I got up this morning and got some stuff together to work on my nails.. worked on my cuticles, buffed them down and shaped my nails, applied a nail strengthener and had myself a slimfast.. woo hoo! I need to wean myself off the crack that is diet coke.. I have actually been drinking coke zero lately but am determined to switch to tea and water. I have done it before.. I just usually slip every now and then and then it's right back to the old evil ways. yuck. I have a gym membership. I need to use it. Britt needs to use it and I know he would use it more if I did.

I am going to work on my house today. My sister is coming in to town for a couple of days and I would like the house to look presentable.. so.. not much time goofing off on this computer. I am going to do some work work.. some me work.. and some house work. I am going to try to tackle my eyebrows at some point today.. I may need a beer for that job though!!

No catchy title.. just friday night ramblings..

I am glad it's Friday, even though I haven't been at work hardly at all this week. I had an interview this morning at children's. I hope I get it. It would be working weekend nights in the NICU with the little babies. I am hoping to know something soon. I am wanting to do this primarily so I can be at home with Eli all during the week and not worry about missing work. I could take care of him and still work full time. Some people have said that I am nuts for wanting to work at ACH since we are up there so much anyway for Eli's treatments. Crazy thing is, I am comfortable there. I know my way around up there, and when he goes in for his second transplant, I can still work - but feel close to him too. I think it will make things easier. I love that hospital. I really want to go to nursing school eventually. That's why I started school. I soon realized that taking classes during the day was going to prove challenging while trying to work an 8 to 5 job. Working like this will make it easier for me to go back to school when Elijah gets done with treatment this time. ACH offers a tuition reimbursement too - so that's a bonus. PLUS. I would get to wear scrubs to work!!! woo hooo!!!! ha ha ha.
I sat down last night for some reason and added up how much it would cost to get my hair cut, have my nails done, have a pedicure and get my eyebrows arched.. wow.. It's expensive to be a girl.. and I get CHEAP haircuts by most standards!!

What is Victoria's Secret?

So I wonder.. Do most women just buy underwear and bras from time to time, or do they just wait til it all wears out and then go buy a whole bunch? I have no idea.. you see, I was very spoiled for a long time. My sister was a manager at Victoria's Secret for a few years. Whenever they had big sales, she bought me my bra's and underwear. When it came time for Christmas and Birthdays - I got new panties or the latest "miracle amazing make your boobs stand up and say hello" bra. For the past few years I have had to buy my own stuff!!! What the heck? Not that I am complaining, really. My sister went to work for Coach so I get really cool bags and stuff like that.. and people actually see those! I was just noticing today as I was folding laundry, that I need to go visit my friend Victoria very soon..

lost

I feel a bit lost today for some reason. I feel like there is something I really need to be doing, but I can't remember what it is. It's driving me nuts. I keep looking on my computer hoping that it will come to me in some great epiphany, but it never happens. I just cleaned my kitchen and I guess I will move on to laundry next. I borrowed John's carpet shampooer. I am hoping that will make me feel better about my house. I also started working on Elijah's room. THATS a HUGE chore!!! ugh. He just has so much stuff and I have no idea what to do with all of it. I did take most of his stuffed pals out and put them up.
I slept last night. Slept from midnight to 11am. I haven't slept that late in years!!! I have to say that it felt pretty good though. I got up and cooked a big breakfast / lunch for everyone. It was good and I enjoyed it. Elijah and Britt are playing with some of his toys that the kids at St. James sent. So sweet.
I go back to work on Monday for the week while he is at St. James. I am going to count points for breakfast and lunch and try to prepare somewhat healthy meals. I may even try to go walk on the treadmill at the gym.
It's 2pm. Where has the day gone? I guess that's what happens when you sleep the day away.
Prayers for today: Elijah to feel great, for our family to have a good day, to get a bit of work done, a feeling of peace.

Finally got a call!!!

When I updated my profile on the Arkansas Children's HR website, I noticed that the first time I applied for a job there was in 2004!!! Recently I applied for several positions that would allow me to work from 7pm to 7am on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. This would make it possible for me to still have a full time job, but be able to be with Elijah for treatments. I will probably make less money, but I would make a lot less anyway with all the work I am missing. I am hoping this is an answer to a prayer. I think it would make me feel better anyway.. I was in such a FOUL mood yesterday. Just angry at EVERYTHING. Poor Britt has to get the brunt of it. I told my friend on the phone today that I was in such a foul mood that Britt could have brought me home flowers and chocolate, ran me a bubble bath, filled the room with candles and romantic music and I would have still been angry about SOMETHING. It was just one of those days. I am praying that this job thing comes through. I think it will take a huge stress off of me and let me be where I want. I can handle being away from Eli as long as I know Britt can be with him when I am not there. I think that will make things feel better for both of us. I don't want Britt feeling guilty because I am missing work- I really don't care. :)
Vacation is coming soon. I really want to take some time to just sit on the beach and watch the water. I miss the ocean.
prayers for tomorrow: easy day of chemo; good news about job situation; the cleaning fairy to come to my house!!!