Me? School?

My friend Summer brought up an interesting subject in her message regarding my last posting. Have I ever thought about going to nursing school? The answer to that question is a very loud, booming, vibrant, YES. I have thought about it quite a bit. Back when I was quite a bit younger, I applied for and was accepted to Baptist School of Nursing. I chickened out. My grandmother had me convinced that I wasn't cut out for nursing and that I wouldn't stick with it, I was scared that I couldn't pass the science classes, and my (at that time) husband wasn't too excited about me going to school in Little Rock. So.. I was talked out of by all three of us. I opted to stay close to home and take classes I was fairly comfortable with at UCA. I never finished.
I went back to college for the first time last year. I took two classes because I was scared to death to do anything more than that. I just didn't know if I had what it took to go to school anymore. After a bit, I learned that I loved being in school. I really enjoyed learning and being back in that environment. I took Comp II (a writing class) and Psychology. I made A's in both classes and was ready to take two more classes the following semester. My plan was this.. take two classes at a time until you have all the prerequisites taken care of.. Then apply to nursing school.. Then Elijah relapsed.
I went to work in the NICU for a little bit just before his transplant. While I was working there, I came to the conclusion that I didn't want to go to nursing school anymore. I was very uncomfortable with the fragility of the babies in there. It made me think "do I think I could emotionally handle having someone elses life in my hands like that?" My answer was that I didn't think I could.
Well, we went in for Elijah's transplant and I became, once again, more comfortable with what was going on. My desire to go to nursing school once again rearing its head. My husband is now thinking, more than ever, that I am so wishy washy and wont ever be able to make up my mind about what I want to do.
Now that I am working in the ER, I want to go back to school more than ever.. and am convinced that nursing is what I want to do.
Now I just have to figure out how to make it happen.